so buffet i ate sashimi(~7 pieces salmon n tuna)+3prawns+4 mussels+1 baby lobster+~13 cherry tomatoes+salad leaves+pickled ginger balsamic vinegar white wine vinegar soy sauce...like i dont feel terrible w wat i ate i was completely aware that i avoided the carbs cus they were "unhealthy" ones like white and butterfied and that i avoided the more oilier cooked stuff like charsiewchilean seabass and i wish i did try cus i wanted to but i was scared that i would be too consumed abt how unhealthy itwas after eating it and thus cannot eat anything esle+messes w my mind the whole nite n today so altogether skipped it...
....like did i do anything wrong?...i dont know...i stuck to the "clean" foods only...is that ok?...then on the way home i kept thinking if i ate too much but i think not....i think i regret eating less during the day to prepare for the buffet but if i did not eat less yesterday during the day i doubt i could handle dinner cus i was telling myself its ok to eat more cus u ate lesser in the day...i should go study now
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Hey! I just found your blog and I've never commented before...but I just really wanted you to know that you did nothing wrong. an ED is the biggest pain in the ass to deal with. Don't beat yourself up. The fact that you WENT TO A BUFFET and didn't have an anxiety attack or eat the entire buffet or nothing at all is a HUGE IMPROVEMENT :) remember, look at the positives and all the great steps you ARE making. Recovery is a slow and hard process but you'll get through it
ReplyDeletexoxo- stay strong
-Lisa