just right now.

if only i spent the time i cried studying...i so relatives came over at dinner time, i was unhappy cus ihave a test 2morrow and i wanted the house to b quiet. i did not need anxiety, food thoughts today. i had 2 fillts of oily snow fish + a crab claw + tomatoes. i felt unforably full. havent felt like that in forever. all i could think was if only i knew how to force puke, i can get rid of this food anxiety and concentrate studying. i still feel full, i am hating this. alot lots alotalot...i need to concntrate on studying, y o y do ppl visit me NOW of all times, no time to psych myself up 4 unsafe food amt social stuff.